Throw away account obviously but I’m sitting here, on a Friday night alone. I recently split off with my fiancee of 2 years, we were supposed to be wed in a few months. Shes off partying and living life up, and I’m happy for her. We still live together for the time being before our lease ends. This is exactly how my previous relationship ended. Ironic. She has a social circle to support her.
Well, throughout the course of 5 years, I have slowly burned many bridges of friends and over the course of 10 years, have destroyed many women’s perception of trust. The list goes on. My regret and guilt is an all time high.
On top of this, my family doesn’t really know the real me. I have such a hard time making connections with them and others at this point of my life.
I am seeking to rectify the entire situation by trying some therapeutic techniques. AMA.
Would you consider monkhood as a possible prospect for your future?
This is hilarious because I’m actually deeply interested in spirituality and philosophy. I love to think about the world and beyond. I don’t really concern myself with other humans, and when I find I do, I end up presenting a tattered mess as a result. Mostly gossiping etc, nothing truly productive.
Then you have a fallback option it things don’t work out. Just try not to become an evil cult leader please.
Ironic because most of my Youtube history is about documentaries involving cult leaders or peoples of influence - usually of darker or colorful pasts that lead them to make not so great decisions in the end.