Personally, I grew up on a single parent home, where I saw my mom get destroyed by her office work. The lack of unions, no external help and general misoginy, made her get super depressed, and became an alcoholic. In my teenage years I was almost lured by the manosphere communities, but got helped by a group of close friends that were left leaning. Most of them were anarchist, so I started with that. Slowly but surely, I started to understand how sick this system is, and it made me furious, but I never found a way to show my ideas. No political party represented my ideas, and I fell deeper in the anarchist rabbit hole. Yes, I was a hardcore anarkiddie, but I bite me back. When I needed them the most, they turned their backs on me, and fell into deep depression. And in seeking psychological help, my counselor recommended me going back to my roots. So I went back to videogames, japanese culture and most importantly, read again after years The Communist Manifesto. I still don’t know how to position myself in the left, but I know that I’m a Marxist, and that I want change. Stay safe, comrades.
At first I thought there was hope and democracy could fix it. It was 2012 when the left party in France betrayed. We had a lot of hope after 5 years of radical liberal right, fascism being on the rise and much to do for climate already. But they betrayed : the main left party was actually a liberal right party. After that was Macron who is a liberal fanatic with fascist tendencies.
In the end I had nothing to do, the government is considering moderate, democrat left to be extremist as bad as extreme right, yet they are themselves going full fascists because they need them to vote laws.
Now I consider myself radicalised. I cannot tolerate liberalism or fascism anymore. I feel like our democracy is already dead.
Unfortunately I don’t know of a party or even a doctrine that would fit my beliefs. I don’t believe in anarchy, liberalism and capitalism must die, ecologists are bourgeois who want to feel better but don’t understand science or politics, Marxism is outdated in my opinion (too focused on work as the central part of society).
So here I am, both radicalised but without a political family.