Oh, I forgot to mention something in my previous comment so please excuse the double-tap.
There’s absolutely no reason why you have to focus your learning on the ongoing dark history of the US. It’s still going to be there waiting for you whenever you’re ready to come back to it.
If you feel like you’re getting doompilled by staring long into that particular abyss then it is no longer serving you or the greater struggle. So abandon it, at least temporarily.
There are a ton of inspiring things from the past and the present moment that you can focus on so seek out those things and give yourself permission to put investigation into the stuff that brings you down on hold. Also, when you return to this stuff, remember that you need to be doing this with a sense of purpose. Mindless consumption of the doom doesn’t work towards anything but if you are learning about this stuff to develop your thoughts about how to intervene in it and defend the revolution (e.g. learning about Salvador Allende’s presidency and the coup in order to take lessons to heart which will inform your politics and how you would guard against subversions and coups) then it gives much more meaning to the difficult subject matter and it makes it less likely to sap your revolutionary spirit.
You might want to consider reducing your intake or disconnecting entirely from the news cycle as well. Of all the things I am exposed to, I find this brings me down like nothing else.
Try to find time for developing your aspirations and hopes as well as for your own leisure. I’m not of the opinion that self-care is a revolutionary act but it sure as hell is a radical act and it’s of critical importance because you’re not going to be of much use to communism, your community, your circle of loved ones, or yourself if you end up in a pit of endless despair.
Oh, I forgot to mention something in my previous comment so please excuse the double-tap.
There’s absolutely no reason why you have to focus your learning on the ongoing dark history of the US. It’s still going to be there waiting for you whenever you’re ready to come back to it.
If you feel like you’re getting doompilled by staring long into that particular abyss then it is no longer serving you or the greater struggle. So abandon it, at least temporarily.
There are a ton of inspiring things from the past and the present moment that you can focus on so seek out those things and give yourself permission to put investigation into the stuff that brings you down on hold. Also, when you return to this stuff, remember that you need to be doing this with a sense of purpose. Mindless consumption of the doom doesn’t work towards anything but if you are learning about this stuff to develop your thoughts about how to intervene in it and defend the revolution (e.g. learning about Salvador Allende’s presidency and the coup in order to take lessons to heart which will inform your politics and how you would guard against subversions and coups) then it gives much more meaning to the difficult subject matter and it makes it less likely to sap your revolutionary spirit.
You might want to consider reducing your intake or disconnecting entirely from the news cycle as well. Of all the things I am exposed to, I find this brings me down like nothing else.
Try to find time for developing your aspirations and hopes as well as for your own leisure. I’m not of the opinion that self-care is a revolutionary act but it sure as hell is a radical act and it’s of critical importance because you’re not going to be of much use to communism, your community, your circle of loved ones, or yourself if you end up in a pit of endless despair.
You are far too important for that.