To anyone not aware of sleep apnea it wouldn’t seem like there was anything wrong with my sleep. I don’t snore, I just don’t breathe continuously when unconscious.

It took about 2 years to fully recover mentally from decades of this shitty sleep. I only found out from visiting my parents and my mom saw me not breathing while I was asleep on the couch. I’ve also had 6 sleep studies in 11 years to try and figure out why it is happening but it is idiopathic.

I can’t remember what people on Reddit with UARS found to be the best treatment but the biggest step always seemed to be getting a doctor to diagnose it properly instead of just signing it off at regular sleep apnea. I hope you find a treatment that helps. The brain can bounce back, so don’t give up hope that you can get your mind back.

I don’t have fear of my dreams, they are just incredibly disjointed and sometimes jarring if I do remember them. It isn’t stemming from abuse or psychological damage that I could go to therapy for, it is likely just because my brain doesn’t properly function during sleep.

Signals that should tell me to breathe don’t send so I get deprived of oxygen until other signals finally kick in and start my breathing again for a few seconds before the whole thing starts again, for every minute I’m asleep without a CPAP machine I am not breathing for 20 seconds or more.

Lots of adrenaline shocks through the night as my heart gets stressed and I’m sure the mix of stress hormones and neurochemicals mess with how my brain processes dreams. It is akin to the feeling people have described of a bad drug trip.

Balanced on what though?

My brain literally doesn’t function properly when I sleep, it doesn’t send signals for my lungs to exhale so it probably is doing other things wrong as well.

Once I started on CPAP there was a huge drop in adrenaline shocks to my heart while I slept.

Or don’t, maybe we are supposed to forget them. For instance I do not want to remember my dreams as I have barely ever had a pleasant one. I’d rather wake up in blissful ignorance of whatever shit my broken brain threw together while it tries to suffocate me.

He must make his viewers consume, he is vicarious energy vampire.

I say that knowing that if it gets really bad I know how to take care of him painlessly but without euthanyl so I can bury him where he deserves to be decompose back into the universe.

So far he is 13.5 years old, blind in one eye, has had 2 tumour removed, a current tumour pressing on his brain, is on 3 different meds (4 if you include occasional CBD) he still runs and chases for kibbles and loves his humans so he’s probably not ready to go yet. Maybe 6 months from now will be different but that is a 6 months from now problem.

So you would have a handful of popcorn and the movie would be over.

In a way I hope my dog dies of natural causes because I don’t want to put him down and not get to put him in the forest of our backyard.

Cremation is bullshit, they cremate a pile of pets all at once and scoop out some for each person. You likely aren’t getting your own pet back.

Not to mention that the drug they use, euthanyl is very bad to get into the ecosystem. If you have a pet euthanized then you can’t take it home and bury it because the chemical will poison anything that happens to dig up the body and eat it.

Places don’t accept pdf files that have signature touchscreen signed signatures?

I sold and bought a house without signing anything except the final papers at the notary. The mortgage, the realtor papers, the inspection all were signed on either a DocuSign page or on my phone with a stylus.

So now the Israeli forces are going to be killing Israeli people, I wish that would be enough the the IDF killed plenty of Israeli citizens already especially on Oct 7th because of the Hannibal directive.

They should make the labels in Arabic say made in occupied “Israel” on their labelling so people who know the stuff that supports Palestinians and boycott all other Israeli products.

BDSM (Boycott, Sanction, Divest & More)

Do you charge it with a magnetic charger like a Fitbit watch?

I feel disgust that Canada supports the continuation of genocide in Gaza.

Gotta stay in business somehow.

I think their idea is to put it into new plastic products.

Teacher of magic.

Teacher of magic.

From cake mix all the way to advil liquigels, then are almost always packaged by the same manufacturer. Why pay some other manufacturer to set up their production lines to make a generic version of something when the original company will do it for you and has their production line already set up to do everything except stamp their name on it.

I don’t need the passwords while I’m out and if it is really important it will will have to wait, if it is really really important then I will go home and get it, but in reality it is almost always never really that important.