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Cake day: June 30th, 2023

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  • I was part of a free company in FFXIV that had a wonderful group of people. Very welcoming and incredibly fun to talk to. They were actually where I got a lot of ideas for my writing. They were an openly gay group and I’m not gay but I didn’t care, they were still fun to be around. But, when I joined the discord server, that’s when I found out how ‘open’ they really were. Channels about meeting each other, posting dick pics, wow. I read a whole comment thread about one of the guild members meeting with the leader for some fun irl.

    Not quite as dramatic but certainly surprised me.












  • For me, it was highschool. I had a great group of friends, almost everyday my cousins and friends would be visiting. Some days I had 4-6 people all visiting me. Mom and dad were happy and healthy. I didn’t need money so I didn’t care I was broke. I was in love with a beautiful person who I still think about.

    Now, in my 20s, I stay in my one bedroom apartment that costs more than my paycheque and I haven’t seen a human face in almost a week.




  • That goofy, fun loving person that I remember I used to be is now replaced with a quiet, cynical shut in. My dream of living in a house I own is forever gone. Debt, disease in the family, the onset of potential wars, and the cost of just being alive have pushed that fun loving person down into a deep dark hole. I used to live in fear of the world ending in fire but now, as fucked up as it may sound, I kind of sympathize with the villains in movies. The world has gotten to the point, in my opinion, that shit needs to burn to make way for a new world. This world is just too fucked up beyond repair. It needs a hard reset. So, you’re not alone. The mental health has taken a nose dive and hit every branch of the ugly tree on its way down.