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Cake day: June 15th, 2023

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    • Last oil change

    Roughly two weeks ago oil + filters, did that myself.

    • Current oil level

    Right at the “F” mark on the dipstick

    • Mileage

    ~178’000km

    • Timing belt/chain history

    Belt changed @ ~160kkm, two years ago.

    • If the noise is present in neutral as well as in gear, and if there is any perceived difference between the two.

    Harder to check, I’ll have to get back to you on that one.















  • But when everyone is anonymous here on Lemmy, I feel comfortable venting about things. I dunno why this feels different, but I prefer it.

    Part of the reason is that the professionals are constantly in it and either get desensitized (or burn out) and stop empathizing as much with their patients. Haven’t seen it with mental health professionals, but the most jaded folks I’ve ever met were nurses/ANs approaching the end of their career.

    Internet strangers on the other hand - we can step away whenever we want, which makes emotional investment less of a burden.

    This handle some irl folks know about, but it isn’t really feasible to find out who I am IRL from anything online associated with it.




  • Honestly, having worked in healthcare, you never, never ever want to answer anything but “no” to the question “do you want to die?”

    It’s basically one of the few things that’s liable to get your rights to autonomy nullified in an instant. Worst thing is the professionals don’t have much choice in this either as not acting on someone having indices of suicidality may cause them to be fired or even lose their professional license.

    What I said to the question was “No, and if I did I wouldn’t tell you, or even be here in the first place. But, I can envision future scenarios where I might consider it as an option if I don’t manage to figure my shit out, which is why I’m here. I have no intention of suffering unneccessarily if a day comes where I’m miserable and there’s no longer any hope for improvement.”



  • Personally I’ve only been to a therapist once - got access to an online cbt program that ended up being of more help than she was (which wasn’t a whole lot).

    Mostly just me talking, highlighting this and that. Her advice basically boiled down to needing to learn to be happy with where I am in life, setting lower ambitions and talking more to people around me.

    Kinda rubbed me the wrong way because I specifically mentioned cause and effect with procrastinating on certain things and ended up being increasingly unhappy/distressed because of that - noting that I’d like advice on how to better align my actions with my goals (not vice versa).

    I’m still a young guy and yeah there’s things I’d like to achieve in life. Not exactly revolutionary stuff, just basic human life goal shit: finishing my education, getting a job, owning a home, finding love y’know.



  • It’s possible to reduce the privacy issues by using APIs with a local frontend. Given that APIs usually cater to companies instead of end consumers they actually have simple opt-outs for information logging.

    Requires a bit of know-how, and you’ll be paying for your llm per use (not that bad actually, I’ve personally averaged <10$/yr in api costs) but at least you get to have all your personal issues on your local device instead.

    For a chatGPT-like experience you probably want the ooga booga web generation ui but there’s others too.



  • As others have mentioned - 2-3 hours of sleep is very tight and I don’t see a mention of time budget for your commute either, or any studies outside of lectures. Uni requires more than attending lectures, personally I’m probably closer to 50/60 hrs / week spent on studying, 20/25 hrs work and 6 hours commuting.

    Ideally, you want to minimize overlap between work days and study days since you’re full time. In this case you’ll get away with only two days of lacking sleep.

    Another thing to keep in mind is that studies can be rather mentally exhausting - especially for a more advanced degree. Being fresh and well rested makes a huge difference for learning capacity. Consider also that you’re paying for your education, you want to be getting the most out of your money. Maybe planning to take a slightly slower pace will allow a more even schedule, an also might avoid a situation where you burn out and end up needing an extra year anyway.



  • Honestly from the point where

    spoiler

    Walter was offered to have his entire treatment paid for and turned it down in favour of selling drugs…

    …he lost all my sympathy. I was increasingly curious about how things were going to go wrong for him. More fascinating train wreck, less investment in him personally.