Everyone knows relationships are hard work. Everyone knows that relationships hit roadblocks and whatever the fuck else. Fucking why. What’s the point? Be with a person that you mostly tolerate most of the days that you exist? And even then, they still might betray you in a horrible way. I’ve dealt with a lot of pain and stress and loss in my life, and when the happy shit gets sour, I just don’t fucking get it. Why not just live my life fucking off and dying eventually.
I mean, you may have stumbled upon the answer yourself. Have you considered that you might just be happier alone? There are ways to have your sexual needs met without having to pair up with someone forever.
As for what the point is, that’s something that everyone has to figure out for themselves. Everybody is different and no two relationships are the same. You can keep trying and maybe get the results you are hoping for, but it takes effort and a genuine desire to not just make a connection but to keep it as well.
My suggestion? Take a break from dating for a bit. Just delete the apps and don’t even think about courtship at all. Live your best single life for a year and see how you feel. If you decide that maybe you want to try again, good. If you figure you are better of not bothering, then that’s fine too.