Mine was in highschool, when I realized that I’m trans and therefore also lesbian. Well, at least that’s what I thought until I started HRT and began to find myself being attracted men as well and that I’m actually pan. Thinking back on it though, I think I found guys attractive years before I even realized that I’m trans and just didn’t accept it for some reason.

Honestly? Not until high school. I was always pretty hetero as far as I knew. I related to the other girls and when they talked about romance with guys, I could relate because I too liked guys and for a while, my crushes were only guys.

I met this really pretty girl and I thought I just wanted to be her friend until I realized I felt the same way about her as I did my guy crushes. Fortunately, she was a lesbian :)

Are we talking first crushes or accepting it?

I (though I don’t love admitting it) had a crush on Britney Spears in about first grade, Anne Hathaway a couple years later, a girl I was close with in high school and stamped those down into my subconscious and stayed closeted to myself until about college when it dawned on me like the Twentieth Century Fox intro.

I also hated being told I had crushes on teen boy idols and didn’t realize why until then either so ¯_(ツ)_/¯

I didnt realize until I was in my early 20s. In hindsight, I had a few little crushes before that, but it was easy to tell myself “well, I like women, so obviously I’m not gay” while conveniently forgetting that bisexuality exists.

I was on a hiking trip with my best friend of a few years and he jokingly suggested we cuddle in his hammock shortly after we set up camp for the evening. I got a little flustered from it, enough to realize that the feelings I had for him were more than just bros being bros. Luckily he was only half joking when he suggested it, because I took him up on the offer and thats how he became my boyfriend.

At first, I just mainly liked women, but I never really cared about gender from the beginning, I guess. As a child, I never understood gender roles and gender attraction and all that, so it all felt the same to me (maybe it’s something to do with how I viewed social rules as an autistic person?) Though I liked women, I would’ve been fine dating any gender if the right one came along.

Sure enough, several right men (though I would still date regardless) came along. My current interest is in a dude.

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Kinda just decided I was kinda gay one day.

But I’m also starting to realize I don’t care about relationships or sex that much (or maybe I do, idk, probably change my mind tmrw), so maybe that disqualifies me here.

Weird thing is, I never had one. I was 11 and sitting in my moms car while she was in the gas station, and thought to myself “why are all the couples on tv a guy and a girl. Surely someone out there likes the same sex. Would I…yeah, Id be fine with that” I was a sheltered autistic kid and just had never been exposed to homosexuality or homophobia. So while everyone on tv being straight was weird, it never occurred to me being gay would invite issues

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Around the start of middle school or a little earlier I saw a counselor at one of my summer camps and just looked at his eyes. I was incredibly confused and intimidated by the feeling of attraction and questioned why the hell I was feeling this unique emotion towards men. At the time I understood myself to be a guy (definitely not anymore lol but I’m not willing to do the argument over how “gender” is created) and it took me a WHILE to figure out… fuck… that was attraction. Does anyone else feel that theyre attracted to one gender in a very different way from another? That was a source of tension for me when I was figuring out my sexuality.